Monday, December 27, 2004


I waitressed for the first time today. That was exciting I guess. It's been kinda a crappy day. Like, everything was great! I had a great Christmas. I got awesome stuff from my grandma. Then from my mom I got everything I asked for except for a palm pilot:P Then I got like 100 bucks from my aunts which is always nice! But of course Sunday after church I went to Wal Mart and life got terrible all of a sudden. Like, I saw my ex-bf...the like I guess you could say "love of my life" at the time. And I was listening to the Kelly Clarkson cd my mom got me for Christmas and there's this song that totally explains everything about how I feel now. It's like "because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk. because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. I find it hard to trust not only be but everyone around me. Because of you I am aftraid. I lose my way and it's not too long before you oint it out. I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes. I'm forced to fake a take a smile, a laugh, every day of my life" and then it's like "because of you I try my hardest to forget everything. Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in. Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty." And I HATE that I think of him everytime and I really don't want to! It's like, I need something to keep my mind off of it all! And I really hate that I feel like that.
And then of course work is totally sucking! It's very stressful! Like, I hate going into work everyday and I really wish I had other options. I'm just afraid that there are no other choices and that I'm stuck at Dumplin's until I get to Tulsa. Like, right now there are probably no job openings anywhere because of the holidays and everyone getting jobs to pay for Christmas presents and stuff. It's totally poopy right now!
But I know things will get better. Sometimes it just helps to write stuff out just to get it out even though no one will probably ever read this!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004


Ok, so the snow they said we would be getting actually did come! SWEET!!! And for once, I didn't have to go to work and since it's "winter break", I get to stay home! I slept until like 10:30 (not counting the time I spent trying to figure out if we were going to close today {6-7 am} and then when my grandma called me to make sure I wasn't going to work {8:30am}). But I am still in my pj's and plan on staying in them ALL DAY LONG!!!!! hahahhaha I'm so excited!

Saturday, December 18, 2004

That's not very nice!

Ok...I understand that you may be jealous, but you should not insult someone who sings better than you do! lol You really should be more nice mister! Well this is definitly my shorted entry, but I have to get ready for work.

Friday, December 17, 2004

¡Este para usted Shawn! (This one's for you Shawn!)

¿Así, qué pasa? ¡Estoy seguro que usted no puede leer lo que escribo en este momento tan HAHAHAHA!!

¿Pienso que yo le cantaré una canción: cuán es alto el cielo? ¿Cuán largo es tiempo? Con usted es cómo gastaré la mina, como no hay fin a la vista.

¡Adivino que eso es suficiente español para usted!

What can I say? I got bored!

It's been a weird day!

Well, today has been weird. I'm exhausted, yet I slept like 9 hours. That just blows my mind. Then at work, it was so slow until 1:45. That's really weird because at 1:45, no one ever comes in. Now, I'm just sitting here wanting to go to sleep or something. I don't know. Then, I completely forgot what I was going to do just a few minutes ago. So I thought I would just fill in the one person who reads this about what's going on.
Get this! I'm listening to Hanson right now. lol It's one of their newer songs (Mmm Bop kinda killed them if you ask me!) But the song is Penny and Me. Shawn, I'm sure you've never heard it before. It's a pretty decent song if you ask me. I'm sure you're thinking that I have no taste in music but I think the same about you so we're even! lol
Well, I guess I'm gonna get off here for now.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004


Ok...generally, I'm not the type of person to complain about other drives, partially because I'm not the best driver in the world. What can I say, I get bored going so slow sometimes so it's nice to be a little wreckless...but not RUDE! I was driving down this road and was at a stop sign. It's like a 3-way stop there so I was looking to see if anyone else was at the other stop signs. I was seriously only sitting there like 2 seconds and I look behind me and see an old guy right on my tail. Then he honks his horn at me. So me being very angry decides to drive the speed limit which is 35:) Hey, I was driving safe. Then we get to another stop sign and I stop and then he just drives on right through it. I was thinking....Everyone thinks it's the teenagers that are causing the wrecks but I think it's the stupid old people who are either impatient or ignorant. Now, not all older people are like this...but some are and it's a conspiracy I say! For once, old people should be considerate and and respect other drivers!

That's all I have to say:)


HALLELUJAH!!! HALLELUJAH!!! FINALS ARE FINSHED FOR ME!!! might think I'm going a bit overboard, but this is an exciting time! I mean, think about it, you work for 4 long months in your classes and then you finally are finished...that's an AWESOME feeling! Especially since it's time to be getting ready for Christmas (well past time, but when your mom hasn't been home for like 2 or 3 weeks and you don't know where anything is, then you kinda understand). I mean, this is really one of the best feelings ever. I feel like a thousand tons have been lifted off my shoulder.
Well, my first Christmas exchange is tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to it. I've gotta wrap the gifts though so that should be fun. Then friday night I've got a Christmas/Birthday thing for a couple of my friends whose birthday is a week before and a week after Christmas. So we have like a joint thing. Sunday is our Christmas play at church. It's gonna be good I hope. It's really short this year so that's kinda exciting. And then Tuesday is my first ever work Christmas party. And I'm just wondering if I'm going to get a Christmas bonus...that would be VERY nice!
Well I'm off for now:)

Monday, December 13, 2004

First Blog

Well everyone, this is my first post. I'm trying to decide how I like this whole thing. But I'll just tell you about my day today. I had a final this morning at 8...not a bad one at all. Most likely an A! YAY! Then at noon I had my history final. Now, I'm borderline A in that class and I'm totally nervous about that final. I really studied super hard for it so I'm praying for a good grade! Then I had one tonight and it was so easy. All we had to do was participate and we got our points. Definitly an A in that class! My last final is wednesday so PRAISE GOD!!! Five weeks of no great is that???
Tonight our church had a volleyball game and we won our first match tonight! We're like the worst team in the league so to win a match is like...a miracle! I really kicked butt at the game too. I was very proud of myself.
Well, I'm off for tonight. I have to work tomorrow! YIPPEE!!!